I Deserve --GUEST POST by Elisabeth from Imma Walking Fashion Crime

Hey eveyone! We have a very special post to share today. My beautiful and wonderful friend, Elisabeth, who blogs over at Imma Walking Fashion Crime is sharing her amazing insights here on Boyless In The Burbs. Seriously this girl is SPOT ON and I just love her!  Everyone should basically memorize what she has to say:)

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Hey peeps! My name is Elisabeth and I blog over at Imma Walking Fashion Crime. I post about fashion sometimes, love sometimes, and life all the time. My biggest guilty pleasure is Chick-Fil-A and brownies are my favorite dessert. I'm SO excited to be here on Kenzie and Amanda's blog!! 

In a lot of my classes this semester, my peers and I discuss this trait of entitlement that runs through our generation. We're entitled to have a good job with benefits because we have a bachelor's degree...we're entitled to have nice things and socialize on our iPhones, etc.

While having a sense of entitlement can be detrimental depending on what exactly you feel entitled to, there is one part of feeling entitled that we have a right to: What kind of person we're gonna marry. 

It's not even that we're entitled to it, but that we deserve it. Why? Because we have a right to select who we want to be sealed to for all eternity. It is the biggest decision we will ever make in our life. It affects our entire future.

Lately, this is what I have decided:

I deserve the kind of guy who kisses me because he cares about me, not because he wants to "get some".

I deserve someone who honors his priesthood with complete fidelity and values temple worthiness.

I deserve to feel supported in a relationship...that whatever I decide to do (whether I want to have a career or be a stay at home mom) he'll let me do it. And vis versa!

I deserve the kind of guy who respects womanhood and its sacred calling.

I deserve someone who will buy tampons for me and not be a man-child about it.

I deserve to be treated well.

I deserve the kind of guy who adores me! Someone who will buy me Chick-Fil-A because they know I'm addicted to it.

I deserve someone who is interested in what I'm interested in because he loves me, even though he totally hates it.

I deserve the type of guy who corrects me when I'm wrong, but only because he cares about me so much that he hates seeing me do something stupid.

As women, we are SO hard on ourselves. We settle over and over again because we believe that's all we deserve. Look for the red flags and don't be afraid to point out those red flags. Make boys own up to their actions and if they can't see that they're not treating you correctly, you are SO much better off without them.

My dad has always told me: It is SO much better to end up alone than to spend eternity with the wrong person. 

And that's my two cents about dating because I firmly believe that if I'm doing all I can to be the kind of person I want my husband to be, then I deserve to fall in love with the most stellar man in the world.

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And there ya have it ladies and gents. You DO deserve someone stellar. Don't settle. Ever.

Go check Elisabeth out and show her amazing blog some love! It's seriously an all-time favorite!

Red Flags

Disclaimer:

If you read this post and you recognize any of these things in your current relationship, something is probably wrong, and you just might to run in the opposite direction.

Funny thing happened not too long ago that has gotten me thinking a lot lately: recently my biggest ex has gotten in touch with me again. It has actually happened quite often in the 2+ years since the breakup HE initiated. And sometimes, I am sad to say, I have found myself thinking, "what if we would get back together?" Then I start thinking about our relationship and not just how horribly it ended, but how horrible it was while I was in it. And a lot of times I didn't even realize, or didn't want to, just how bad things were.  Then I get these vivid reminders of little things that were really signs of huge issues. You know- those little inklings you get that something isnt't right. Those feelings you get that you push aside because you don't want them to be true. Those tough truths. I am talking about those 

RED FLAGS.

 Now, contrary to what you might think, a lot of these red flags are subtle, they don't grab your attention like other red flags do- you know, cheating, lying, etc. These are the things that are easier to defend and explain away. Things like:

COMPROMISE (not the good kind)

You know, when your significant other wants you to do things that you are uncomfortable with, wanting you to compromise on the things that are important to you. This can be simple things like talking you into watching a movie you think is vulgar, to wanting to push the physical boundaries you have set. I am a Christian girl, and I made the choice long ago to wait until marriage for sex. My ex knew this, said he was the same way, but at the same time he wanted to push things, little by little. He was always trying to talk me into flashing or something else (pshyeah, clearly he respected me and my body *eye roll*). Obviously I did not want to do these things, they were things I was strongly against, but he would use it as a bargaining tool. He wouldn't even kiss me, but he wanted to see my exposed breasts, how does that make sense?! RED FLAG.

HAVING TO DEFEND YOUR SIGNIFICANT OTHER

One of the biggest things I remember from when this ex and I broke up is that after it happened my little sister said to me,

 "I never liked him. I hate to say it, but I saw this coming." 

I was shocked. And at the same time, I believed her because I constantly had to defend my boyfriend's behavior to her and everyone else that knew us.

It totally reminded me of on Valentine's Day (spoiler alert) where Ashton Kutcher's fiance breaks up with him and he is talking about it with his best friend, Jennifer Garner. He asked her if she really  thought that his fiance was right for him. She began to sugar coat her feelings but after he asked for her complete honesty she told him that no, she did not think they were a good match. She always thought something was wrong. He in turn was trying to warn her that something was wrong with the current relationship she was in (the guy was married!). He said:

"That's what I'm doing here. Because apparently everyone and their mother felt that way but nobody had the guts to tell me! And now I am left with [...] an ache in my gut the size of Texas because nobody told me."

If you find yourself defending the actions of your significant other to your friends and family, there is something wrong. You only feel the need to defend wrong actions, because hey, you feel defensive, and there's a reason!

  If they were treating you right and doing right things, there would be nothing to defend. 

BAD WITH MONEY/ A JOB JUMPER

I don't know about you, but I don't want to be supporting a deadbeat. My dream guy definitely isn't the type who sits on his butt and isn't willing to treat me to dinner and other special treats every once in a while. With my ex, there were MANY instances of this, but one particular one sticks out in my mind. I remember he was obsessed with gun shows and we would go to them together every now and then. There was one almost 4 hours away that he decided he wanted to go to and invited me along. When we ended up taking my car the 8 hour drive(after planning on him being the one to drive) he acted like he was at least going to help chip in for gas, but when we pulled up to the pump he asked for MY card and I shelled out the money for the whole trip. Not to mention the car overheated and needed serious repairs. Did he offer to help with the cost at all? Not one bit. But he was sure to shell out hundreds on himself buying knick-knacks when we got to the show. Not very gentlemanly if you ask me...

or kind

 or thoughtful

or something indicative of someone who is responsible 

or something anyone should have to put up with.

Chances are if someone is really irresponsible with money, they aren't very responsible or reliable in a lot of areas of life.

Don't get me wrong, I am all for a shopping spree or an unexpected splurge every now and then, but if someone is unwilling to hold a job, pay bills, pick up the check, etc, something is wrong.

There are so many red flags to be aware of in relationships and dating. It can be overwhelming. But I am not saying to live in paranoia. I am not recommending giving your life over to skepticism and cynicism. I am not saying to expect perfection. I AM saying to be careful. I am saying to pay attention to those little things, those inklings, those feelings that tell you something is off.  That you should be willing to look at things differently. That you need to know that you are worth more than poor treatment. You don't have to ignore red flags and put up with treatment in a relationship that is not loving, kind, thoughtful, or respectful. 

Red flags are there for a reason. Pay attention, and don't take them down just because you don't want them to get in your view of someone you perceive as, or wish was good.

He's Just Not That Into You

Has anyone ever seen the movie He's Just Not That Into You? Ok, if you haven't, and you are a female, and if you have ever dated or ever intend to date in the future, you need to NOW.
I remember the first time I watched it I felt pretty uncomfortable because I identified with a lot of the scenarios they portray in that movie. I remember it hitting me like a ton of bricks when Alex told Gigi that if a guy wants to be with you, call you, see you, etc, he will make the effort. No exceptions. It definitely hit a chord with me when I thought to myself of my current situation: being in an on and off again relationship with a guy who made little to no effort to be with me. He would say he would call, but never did. If we were texting, he would either wait hours to respond, or just did not do it at all. He "fit me into his schedule" whenever it suited him. Even if that meant me sitting on the couch and watching him and his friend play Halo for 3 hours. Real "quality" time there I tell ya *insert eye roll.*  I didn't want to believe that his behavior could just be for the plain and simple fact that
he was just not that into me, at least not enough to care/treat me like he did.

Observe:

It's a very tough pill to swallow, but once you do it makes life so much better.  You no longer feel the need to wait by the phone hoping he will actually text you when he said he would. You no longer wonder why he isn't calling, you just say

 "Oh well, HIS LOSS," and move on.

Because you see, if you think about it, is that really the kind of relationship that you want?

To be somebody's back up? To only see them when it is convenient for them? For them to float in and out of your life as it pleases them? To be strung along? To be treated like your feelings don't matter? To get your hopes up that "he's changed" just for him to let you down AGAIN?

I don't think so!

I know, I am sad to say I accepted this treatment before. I convinced myself to stick with a guy who I had fallen for, but did not treat me well.  I always stuck around, hoping that he'd change, or what's worse, trying to change him. 

It took the final straw of him breaking my heart into a million pieces that I decided I deserved better. And so does everyone! 

If you find yourself making excuses about the behavior of someone you like to other people, or even to yourself, something is wrong.
You shouldn't have to make excuses for someone's mistreatment of you. There should be no mistreatment in the first place.
The simple truth is that if a guy is into you, he will get off his butt and make the effort that is required to date you. He will make the effort to see you. He will treat you with care and respect. He will keep promises. He won't string you along. He won't play games. He won't waste your time.
Your time and your feelings don't deserve to be wasted on somebody who doesn't treat you right.  It's that simple. Don't accept treatment that belittles you. Don't make excuses for someone's bad behavior. Walk away and find somebody who WILL treat you right.Period.

Perfect On Paper

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When I was about 16 and attending church, I remember during a lesson one Sunday in my Young Women's class (which consisted of all the girls in my church who were 12-18 years old) we were talking about what we wanted in our future spouses. We were then handed pieces of paper and told to take a few minutes and write down a few things we would like to see in our future husbands.  It didn't take me long to compile a rather lengthy list of "qualities" I wanted in my future husband...

Handsome
Funny
Goes to my Church
Likes my music...
Goes to concerts

etc, etc

It was easy to think of things that would make up my "Dream Guy."  At the time I was "kind of dating" a guy who went to my church, (you know-the awkward, teenage pre-everyonehasacellphoneandcantextastheyplease era and we would see each at her in school,church, and "hang out" every now and again after classes but happened to have major crushes on each other type of dating).  I didn't really think too much about my list, or, for that matter, anything really other than the fact that I found this boy SUPER hot and we always seemed to have tons of fun together. Plus, he seemed to like me back! So it was a no-brainer right? Yeah... not so much. Shortly after we started "hang-out-dating" I found out things about this boy that I did not like at all. Things that were definitely deal breakers....( i.e. things like drug use and the complete betrayal and dishonesty that comes with it). I would like to say that I ran for the hills and never looked back. But he had those green-ish eyes and that shy, flirty smile, and HE LIKED ME BACK. The dream guy list was thrown out the window as I dated this boy for years, which led to more suffering, heartache, and loss than I knew I could possibly endure, but that's another story for another post (or several).

I (mistakenly) started dating right away after the break up from this green-eyed boy, sadly falling into the same type of trap...

Cute?..check
Seems to like me back?...check

and sad to say that's about where it ended. I didn't really care about the details. Because if a guy likes you back that's all that really matters right?! WRONG.
It took me a little while to realize that I get to choose what types of qualities are important to me. What things I am ok with and what things I am not willing to budge on. I found my teenage "Future Husband Qualities" list and decided I needed to make a new one. I realized how superficial most of the things on my list were, and that after years of dating I had come to know what things were really important to me, and what things were not-so-important.
For example, I don't think it's important if my dream guy listens to the exact same type of music I do. Would it be cool if we had similar tastes and could share the exact same music collection? You bet. But is that going to help him treat me with love and respect? At the end of the day is that what is going to have him kneel and pray with me before we go to sleep? No. What WILL make him do that is what's important to me-which is that he loves God with his whole heart. And by so doing his whole life reflects that.
Would I like it for my husband to love going to concerts as much as I do? Of course! But is that a deal breaker? Is that what makes him a good man, with a good, honest, and gentle heart? No. What would be a deal-breaker is if he were selfish and unwilling to support me in my hobbies, just as it would be selfish of me not to support him in his.

Last year I dated a guy who I thought could be my dream guy. If I would have written down the list of things he had to offer he would have been PERFECT ON PAPER.

Driven
Hard Worker
Goes to my church
Loves God
Has a good job
Great chemistry
and BONUS
Super Tall (I swoon for tall guys)
In the medical profession (sexy right?)
Brought me flowers
Planned amazing and fun dates

Even as I write that I am like WHY DIDN'T IT WORK OUT/WHY DID I END IT? Gah. Well, people can be perfect on paper but when it comes down to it, that doesn't make for the "perfect" relationship (yeah, there are no such things as perfect relationships, just ones that are perfect for you).
In the end, I chose to walk away from Mr. Tallmedstudent. As weird as it sounds there were some red flags and something ended up just not clicking, even after several months of dating. And thanks to past experience, I have learned to pay attention to red flags, because they are there for a reason.

Another guy I dated in the past few years had several of these "perfect on paper" qualities. And we tried our hand at dating several times. BUT when it came down to it, I just wasn't falling for him. I didn't see him in the way I SO wanted to see him. Because I thought
"heck, good guys are hard to come by" and "this guy is a GOOD guy and treated me so well."
 But something was missing. I remember talking to my mom trying to explain why I wasn't into him, because even as I was trying to explain why it didn't make sense, he seemed to be everything I was looking for.

I remember saying, "I don't know, Mom, I just don't like him."
She looked at me and replied, "And you don't have to."
It can be that simple.

My mom's simple statement has helped changed my view of dating. I realized that I had crossed a line between dating guys just because they liked me, to realizing what's important and dating good guys, then far over the line to the extreme of feeling like I HAD to date certain guys because they were good guys.

  Do you have to like someone because they seem to be a good guy? Do you have to create a relationship with someone who fits into your "perfect" list just because he does fit the bill? No way.
I tried and tried to convince myself to like this guy. I tried to create feelings that weren't really there. But when it comes down to it
Would I want someone to have to CONVINCE himself to like me?
Definitely not.
Things and people can seem perfect on paper but it's important to pay attention to your heart and use your head.
I am not saying to throw caution to the wind and forget what's important to you. I am not saying to stick to a list or not stick to a list. I am saying to give people chances, but if things aren't right, they aren't right. Period. I believe God uses inklings and red flags like this to direct us to what is right and away from what is not. I think it is a good thing to make a list to keep you focused on what you are striving for. But I also think it's a good thing not to pay so much attention to sticking to the "perfect on paper" list that you're forgetting real life, and how somebody is really treating you, and how you really feel about them in the grand scheme of things. Because goodness knows, you can't capture that on paper.